waiting

My flight delay again, it suppose depart at 5.35pm but it delay until 6.15pm. Then i have to wait, i had been try waiting for two hours before so this condition consider not bad already......at the end i arrive at LCCT around 8.00pm. May be i am too "lucky" already, usually if i take the 5.30pm flight, sure it will be delay one....how come? Just hope that the day i go back to Kuching, the flight won't delay again.

属于

“我坚持的都值得坚持吗？
我所相信的就是真的吗？
如果我敢追求我就敢拥有吗？
而如果都算了不要呢”
（~属于~）

对于我来说， 我坚持的都已经失去了坚持的意义，
我所相信的也不是真的，
因为我不敢追求，所以我也不敢拥有，
现在对于我来说一切都算了，
我只想找回属于我的平静与安宁。

I m just a failure

Still have 4 hours and 15 minutes i will say goodbye to my 21st years old, refresh back what i have done during the last whole year, i can summary it with only one sentence- My 21st years old ended in failure .I am so unhappy, lonely and disappointed with all the things happened around me. I don't know why i am fail to make my life become more joyful and meaningful. My heart is broken and tired, is very painful.I fail to being a good friend, a good sister, good daughter and fail to be who i am. I just pass my time like that,din pay attention in class, lack of confidence and i even started to loose my dream.I do not trust people anymore just like my friend said inside believe is lie, now only i realize that. This was not what i suppose to do for getting a good future.I can't stand anymore, with the sadness and painful.I know i will collapse one day if i continue like that. Who can help me to escape from this kind of life? I know only i can help myself.I really hope that my heart will recover soon.I desire a meaningful life and a brighter future.I know i can do it if i put more effort to everything.I don't want my life ended in failure anymore.